First day we met

30th of May, 2021

As this is a day we look back so often to, and it feels like yesterday, I'd love to recap in detail how I felt as I remembered,

Before we met:

We were planning to meet here, and I told you to see my mom, and you were so nervous. I remember that we were so excited to meet each other, so we met a day than we planned, which I was so glad about because the day after that I went to banyuwangi. I was eating a burger with my brother in Canggu when we realize we were literally 5 minutes away from each other, yet we didn't meet each other, and I was looking around from my motorbike to see if I can see your car anywhere. This night I went to Mexicola, where we texted to meet up spontaneously, and I went home, extremely excited to see you.

At this point, we were about 5 minutes away from meeting each other, and my heart is pounding faster than the speed of light. I had become friends with the taxi driver before meeting up, so I can ensure that he was willing to drop us anywhere without creating a hassle. I was preparing myself for this the whole day, yet I'm still so nervous and incapable of controlling my feelings, as the girl I was in love with is so close to entering the car. As I waited, I took a deep breath to calm myself down, tried to plan everything so I wouldn't fuck things up, and tried talking to the taxi driver to calm my nerves down. And then, there you are, perfectly beautiful, gorgeous, wearing, and rocking the most gorgeous orange tank top I've ever seen in my life, at this point I didn't know if the clothing brand is really good, or if you were just shining. The moment you walked in, it was as if I couldn't breathe, and I remember hugging you as you enter, while trying to catch my breath, and swallow my own saliva.

After gathering all my courage to speak to you, I asked you where you wanted to go, and the one thing you really wanted was gelato, at around 9.30 PM, we couldn't find any, so we stumbled upon a place, that now would be iconic in our relationship, and that is the one, and only;

Johnny Rockets, we would visit this place again on the 5th of September, when we had our Bali trip, which was my favorite Bali trip ever, spending it with you sleeping with you, and you taking care of me when I'm sick.

After this, we would then proceed to walk to my hotel, and you really wanted to walk. You didn't let me walk on the side of the road as you wanted to be the protector. The Legian Bali, where you met my mother for the first time, as I prepare myself in the restroom, and you had a short conversation with her (btw she told me you're a really sweet girl, and she approved after this).

We then went outside the room, as I didn't want my mother bothering you too much, and we proceed to the beach, where I had the best moments of my life in. I remember at first we sat on a chair, listening to music, you had one airpod, and I had the other, sharing a cigarette of Marlboro Ice burst, as you tell me you don't wanna smoke too much. I had been staring at you the entire time, but you probably didn't notice, admiring your beauty every second, every angle, I was confused because you literally look so gorgeous every damn time. I was too nervous to make a move, as I am a shy person, especially with you.

We then took off our shoe wears and proceeded to the beach, where we would feel the sand touch our feet, and the sound of the waves filling our ears. We took a nice chill walk until I took you on my back, and I started taking you running, and you emphasized that I am trying to make this look like a movie scene, which in a way maybe I did. But then, I lost my relx pod, and we spent 5 minutes searching for it, just for disappointment. The beach was empty that day, which was unusual. It's almost as if the universe cleared it out for us. We talked in a dark spot, looking at the stars, I was mesmerized by everything that had happened, still trying to grasp that the woman I'd admired for so long is standing in front of my eyes.

I offered to take off my linen shirt which I had just bought that day for you to sit on, I was in love with the shirt, but at the moment I had no hesitation. We sat down, discussing horoscopes, you mentioning that our horoscopes weren't really a good match, which I had hoped was you teasing me, and me talking about the ocean, and how there's no horizon to it and that scares me, you then come up with scenarios, such as, what if there's a tsunami right now, and I just laughed it off.

As the wind was stabbing our skin, I offered for us to go back up, where we would go to the gazebo, and had a nice talk. We listened to more music, and more cigarettes, the place is so empty. I would then lay down, drawing letters on your back, and later, somehow, convinced you to lay down with me. In here I was staring at your hair, sniffing the good odor of your hair. I was so mesmerized by everything about you. You were talking and I wouldn't focus because of how relaxed I was.

At one point, I felt my body out of control, and I closed my eyes and tried to kiss you, I genuinely felt my body out because this is not something I would do, and as you called me out for it, you said, "What are you trying to do?", and I replied, "Kiss you", which you responded with, "Go ahead then" (Something along those lines). And I did, and there it was, the moment where my heart felt like it stopped, and nothing else mattered. 2 years of our friendship felt like it was connected there, and everything felt so intense, and yet soft, and I felt butterflies flying in me, the happiness I've never encountered before, it was truly a dream. We kissed for a long time and talked to each other about deeper topics, topics I wouldn't have brought up if my nervousness and boundaries were around.

Just like every day, this day had an end, which was around 4 in the morning, I ordered a taxi, and you insisted that I don't take you home, but I did. We were both upset the day had to end, we both knew that after this we needed to wait for some time, as I had to go to Banyuwangi, and you had to go home to Surabaya. This encounter is a day that changed the next 1 and a half years of my life. I'm so happy it happened, every elements of it.

This is the way we texted right after our meet:

We both are so eager to meet each other, our relationship was defined on this day, and this is the first day of a very happy, and lovely relationship with you.